I kept thinking about my fight with Jonathan. He wasn’t trying to make me mad, I know…but I just want someone to understand. I also kept thinking about my ‘future’. I wanted kids, I liked Ramon… Why were we waiting to cement our relationship in stone? If we got married now, Mom might even be able to see me get married!
“Hey, Ramon,” I decided to ask that night, “why are we waiting to get married?”
“Married? What do you mean?”
“To become husband and wife… to be married.”
“I don’t know…”
“Well, I really don’t think we should wait. Marry me!”
“Oh, wow. Selena…”
“Yeah, I guess…”
More excited that that, come on!”
“Yes, Selena, I’ll marry you!”
“That’s more like it!”
We were gonna be married! I was thrilled! I ran around telling everybody in the household the good news…even Jonathan. He seemed surprisingly okay with it.
“If that’s what you want.” he said.
It was what I wanted. I was going to start a family. Finally things were falling into place! Ramon and I decided to go to the pool to celebrate our engagement. I decided to swim a few laps as he wasn’t there yet. Eventually I saw him arrive and go to the top floor balcony. He was probably searching for me. I dried off and walked up to the balcony, and I saw him standing there…talking with someone…