I was nervous. Way too nervous, just for a date. I’d been trying on outfits for at least 45 minutes. Everyone is going to know.
I sighed. It shouldn’t be this hard. I just wanted this girl, Lucinda, to like me. She’d be the first person I would be dating and everyone would know about us. I walked downstairs, finally having decided on an outfit, one that wasn’t too much…or too little.
“Adelaide, where are you going?”
Oh Watcher, I forgot to tell them about the date. “Umm…I have a date. Her name is Lucinda.”
“Oh. That’s great!” Mama exclaimed.
Lexie smiled faintly. “You have a date?”
“Yeah. She’s really nice!” I moved my hand over to the doorknob. “I think she’s waiting for me. I’ll see you guys after!” I smiled, even though I realized how some things would be different after tonight.
“Hey.” Lucinda said. “You look amazing.”
“You do too!” She really did look stunning. Red looked good on her.
“Lucinda, I’m not out. Nobody knows I’m gay.”
She smiled. “Addie, it’s fine. I’m out, in a way. I don’t tell everyone that I’m gay, but I don’t care if someone knows I am.”
“Want to get a table?”
“Yeah.” She slid her hand in mine. “Let’s.”
“Hey, how old are you two?” We stared at the waiter.
“Uh, I’m 17.”
“So am I.” Lucinda added.
“You two can’t have any alcohol.”
I laughed. “We’re not here to drink juice. We’re on a date.” I couldn’t believe how easily that came out, saying I was on a date with a girl, or on a date at all. I eyed the waiter, the first person that knew I was a lesbian besides my ex-girlfriend and my family.
“Ok.” He said. “I’ll get you guys a table. Is outside ok?”
“Yeah.” Lucinda said.
“So, this is your first date, ever?”
“Yeah, it is. This is kinda a new thing for me.”
“Adelaide, you said you aren’t out, right?”
“Yeah… I was confused for a while, and…”
“No, it’s ok! So…you’re coming out to have a date with me?”
“Kinda.” I sighed. “Ok, yeah. I really wanted to have a real date, and I didn’t want to hide anymore.”
“I know how that feels. So how did your parents react?”
“It’s just my mom, my dad died when I was a baby. She was fine with it, though. So was my sister. My brother’s not old enough to really understand.”
“That’s nice. It took my parents a few years to understand. My mom ignored it, and my dad, he just wanted me to be straight so bad. I tried to be what they wanted and I couldn’t. I almost broke.”
I slid my hand over her shoulder, pulling her closer.
“Lucinda, I’m sorry.”
“No, Adelaide. I realized I just had to be myself, lesbian and all.”
It went so great. Everything was so easy around her. It was simple. I knew the next few days would be way less simple… But for the moment, everything was perfect.