I knew things at school would be different. I did. Really. On one hand, I was over the moon for my new relationship, but on the other one, I was no longer just like everyone else. It sounds stupid because nobody is the same but…most girls had at least one thing in common, that they thought boys were hot…and I just don’t have that connection, believe me, the Lexie thing has reminded me enough. I have no idea what it feels like to fall in love with a boy. And I could deal with the stares, and the gossip, because I knew it would happen, but what I wasn’t ready for was my friends reactions.
“Addie, wait. Why didn’t you tell us first?” Zoe asked.
“Yeah, don’t you trust us?” Raini asked.
This was starting to feel like less of a normal conversation and more like some sort of ambush.
“You guys are my friends. Of course I trust you!” I sighed. “Look, I just didn’t want anyone to know.”
“We’re not gay-haters, Addie. Ok, so what if some people are? But we aren’t and we are your friends.” Lyric said.
“I know. Guys, I’m sorry.” And this is when I finally realized something. The real reason I didn’t want my friends to know, at first…and still. “I thought I’d be left out, ok? Of the important conversations about crushes and boys and stuff, just cause I was a lesbian. I didn’t want to lose that. Because while I don’t get what you see in boys…I can still talk about them.” I looked at them, wondering what they’d say. And they laughed, a good laugh…and we all cried a little…
Zoe laughed faintly while tears were still running down her cheeks. “No need to get all cheesy, ok?!”
“Yeah.” I smiled. “And I’m really sorry. You guys are my friends. I should have told you.”
“You didn’t need to.” Lyric said softly. “And I should have told you guys that Charlie finally asked me out…”
We all eyed each other. “He did!?”
I smiled. “We’re good now, right?”
“Yeah. Of course!” Raini said.