Right after Lexie’s outburst, everyone was seemingly too surprised to do anything. I know I was! She has always had a hard time with her emotions, but I never thought she’d do anything even close to this. Watcher. After about ten minutes, people started leaving. Really, after that one person left, everyone decided it was okay to do so. Eventually, it was just Lexie, Dani, and I. I hadn’t really wanted to go while everyone was here, and now…nobody was. I had kept telling Dani that she didn’t need to stay, that I’d be fine, but she insisted on staying. There was a taxi on its way now, coming to pick us up. Lexie and I had walked here originally, and Dani had too, so we had no car. I assume we could have walked home, but I really did not feel like doing that, and Lexie was still in shock.
“What’s taking so long?” I asked Dani, still waiting for the taxi.
“Adelaide, you just called 2 minutes ago. They’re coming.” She sat down next to me on the stairs. Lexie was on my other side, leaning on the railing.
I sighed. “I know. I just want to get out of here.”
Dani nodded, laying her hand atop mine. “I do too.”
She and I just sat there, waiting, in silence. It was a sort of peaceful silence, as neither her nor I felt like using any words. There were no words for what just happened. I was still processing it, and Lexie, still laying against the railing probably was too. She had barely said any words since it happened. I watched the yellow taxi pull up, slowly. Gosh, the driver must be wondering what the heck happened… Dani stood up, pulling on my arm gently.
I agreed, and told Lexie that our ride was here. She just silently nodded, standing up. We filed into the taxi, and I gave the driver our address.
“The big lot?” He asked for confirmation.
“Yep.” I said. We went the rest of the way in silence. I was too scared to speak, that just one word would break this delicate atmosphere. I was sitting in the middle, with Lexie on my left, and Dani on my right. In one moment of pure hope, I laid my head on Dani’s shoulder. She looked down at me and threaded her fingers through mine. I relaxed knowing she wasn’t put off my everything happening. It was the longest cab ride that I’ve ever had. I know everyone expects some grand house behind the intricately designed gate of our private lot. But there wasn’t, at least not yet.
“Hey, can I talk to her?” I motioned my head toward Lexie. Dani’s hand and mine were still clasped together.
She nodded, giving me an encouraging smile. “Yeah. I’ll be waiting…umm, where?”
“You can go to my room. It’s the farthest door down the hall.” She smiled softly at me, and walked toward the house. Lexie and I walked inside, and I was just following her. I followed her all the way to her room.
“Lexie…” I started.
Tears welled up in her eyes. “I didn’t mean to! Well, I kinda did, but everything just happened so fast!” She cringed. “I ruined everything, didn’t I?!”
Well, yeah…but I wasn’t going to say that to her! And there was a possibility I could make some amazing speech to explain everything, but that was a long shot. “It’s fine.” I finally said, even though it was everything but fine.
She looked up, her face showing some hope, then it quickly returned to guilt. “NO! It isn’t fine! I know it isn’t! I’m supposed to be a grown adult, and then I do this?! Watcher!”
She went off, like she does when she gets like this. Her emotions overwhelm her, envelop her, and she seems to forget her surroundings. But of course, nobody’s ever seen it happen before besides me…and now everyone at the protest.
“Am I going crazy?!” She yelled, and I jumped a little.
“No, you aren’t.” At least I hoped not. “Look-”
She cut me off, and said almost so quietly that I couldn’t hear her, “Can you go? I want to be alone. I just nodded, and turned around. Maybe I should have stayed, but I figured that if I was her, I would just want to be alone, so I walked out. I stood outside her door for a while, just staring through the archway into where the stairs were. I eventually went into my room, and I’d almost forgotten Dani was there.
“Hey…” She said, standing up as I walked in.
I walked over to her, not knowing what to say. She said everything for me, instead.
“I heard a lot. These walls are kind of thin.” She sat down on my bed, then reached her hand out to mine. I took her hand and sat down next to her.
“I’m scared.” I admitted. I didn’t know what was happening right now. “I mean, I’ve seen a lot, and I know some people have outbursts, and stuff, but she’s my sister…”
“I know.” She pulled me closer, slowly, until our bodies were pressed up against each other. “But it will be okay. You and your sister are strong women.”
I looked up at her, and whispered, “I know. I…just thought we were past things like this. Shouldn’t adults be dealing with different things?” I twirled my braid around slowly, just wondering how I was here, right now, still dealing with my nineteen year old sister’s emotional outbursts.
Dani just smiled knowingly. “Adults deal with many things…it’s how you deal with them that makes the difference.”
I laughed softly. “Why does that make so much sense?”
She laughed, shaking her head slowly. “I don’t know!”
We just sat there, smiling, making the best of this moment. I looked into her eyes, her beautiful eyes, and she looked right back into mine. In the moment, I suddenly moved my hand from its spot laying on top of Dani’s, and brought it up to gently cup her head…she looked at me, almost frozen in place, and I went for it. I leaned over and pressed my lips atop hers. I let my hand drop down to her waist, and when I looked at her after that, it was only for a few seconds, before she kissed me back.