Chapter 3.34: Hard to Describe

I was still unsure if I did the right thing by sending in Lexie’s application. When we talked about it, she still acted like there was no way she’d get it. Sure, it’s fine to be realistic… and yet she isn’t just being realistic, she’s being over the top. Realistic is like, ‘Oh, I might get it but there’s no guarantee.’ And she’s like, ‘I’m not getting it, there’s no way.’ I really want her to get the job so she can see that she is truly good enough. If she could she in herself what I saw… I wonder if things would be different. I definitely see her in a better light than she sees herself. It’s hard to describe what it’s like now.


I walked in the small restaurant Dani and I had gone to a few times before. This was my first time available for lunch all week.

“Hey!” I looked over and saw her sitting in a small booth, waving to me.

I smiled and walked over. “Hi.”

I sat down on the cream-colored booth on the opposite side of Dani. She reached out her hand, and I took it. We rested our arms on the table, still holding each other’s hands.

“So, how’s everything been going?”

 

I smiled. Things were going great, at least work was. “Everyone really seems to understand my ideas.”

“And…what about not work related things?

There was no clear cut answer for that. Work was easier. I loved what I did, I loved making an impact…and a lot of people understand what I’m trying to do. In fact, I really feel like I might get on the Cove’s committee. But, my home life, which I’d always thought would be the easiest because of how great Lexie and I got along, had just become weird. Like an alternate universe. She had become almost loner-like. While yes, she did leave her room (now…) and talk to me (sometimes), there was still something missing. There wasn’t a word to describe it, maybe…odd? I sighed. “It’s different. Not exactly awkward…but kind of…”

“Hey, are you okay?” She squeezed my hand, putting her other hand on top.


“Yeah. It’s just weird. And I did something I don’t know if I should have done.” I sighed, playing with the end of my braid. “I sent in a job application for Lexie when she showed me a great job opportunity.”

Dani raised her eyebrows, obviously confused. “What’s wrong with that? She did show you, after all.”

“Yes, but she said that she wasn’t even considering it. It was ‘too good’ apparently.”

“Adelaide. It’s already happened. You were trying to do something nice, and yes, it is her life, and her decisions…but you’re trying to help.”

“You’re right, though. She’s an adult, and she can make her own choices. I’m just her older sister, and that doesn’t give me the ability to do something like that!”

“Hey.” She reaches over and brushed my hair back behind my ear. “It will be fine. Especially if she gets the job. Maybe she needed this. Sometimes all you need is a push. It’s not like you signed her up for a gang!”

“True.” I smiled. As I looked up, I noticed the waitress coming over to us. I was ready to order, but she just put food down in front of each of us. My eyes flicked from Dani and back to the waitress.

Dani looked up at her. “Thank you.” As the waitress walked away, she looked back to me. “Hey…”

“Is this our food?”

“Yeah. It’s okay that I ordered for you, right? I remembered that you said you wanted to try the lemon chicken last time…”

I smiled. I didn’t even know that she’d remembered that. And she had ordered my drink, the one I’d gotten every other time we were here. Softly, I said, “You got my drink too…”

“Yeah…” She grinned. “So, what else is new?”

We talked as long as my lunch break allowed, talking about everything from how is seemed summer was lasting forever, to what we should wear to Raini’s wedding this winter. I told her how excited all my friends were that I had found an amazing girl. I almost said girlfriend, but we hadn’t used that word yet. After dating for a month, do people really call each other their girlfriend/boyfriend? I guess some people might… Anyway, we talked about everything-but Lexie. I don’t think either of us knew what to say. I sure didn’t. As we left, she took my hand and kissed me. I placed my other hand on her shoulder and pulled her closer. Neither of us cared who saw two girls making out outside this place. We were only thinking about each other.

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I went back to work feeling like I was floating. Being around Dani just did that, she was able to make anything better by simply being there. Even now that we’re dating, it doesn’t change how I felt about her before. I’m still smiling as I enter the building.

“Hey,” I heard, and I looked over at this woman who was walking in front of me. I had never seen her before in my life, but she was talking to me. “New boyfriend?” As I just stared at her, still confused about why she was even talking to me, she decided to elaborate. “You seem really happy, so a new man?”

Oh Watcher! Gosh. “Um, I’m actually a lesbian. But I’m dating a great woman…”

She eyed me like she didn’t know what just happened. “But…you’re too pretty to be a lesbian! You don’t look gay!” Uh, girl, I’m sure. I’m pretty sure that I would know if I’m attracted to women or not! And gee, lesbians can look like whatever the heck we want to!

“Um, yes. I’m gay.” I just walked right past her, still weirded out. This had happened to me a few times before, but still! Just because I don’t look like what people assume all lesbians to look like doesn’t mean I’m not a lesbian! There are plenty of gay girls out there who don’t have the short hair everyone seems to imagine lesbians have for some reason! Gosh. I went into my office and looked through my emails. I got a lot saying they’d happily vote for me. That was working out, and I already had some plans for what I was going to do.


When I got home, Lexie was sitting on the couch, watching tv. I closed the door and she looked up at me, actually seeming happy. She even walked up to me, smiling.

I was about to ask what, but instead she started talking, and I was thrilled as I heard the words coming out of her mouth. “Addie, I got the job! I start in two days.”

“That’s amazing!”

“Thank you for making me do this, really. Thank you.” She enveloped me in a hug, and I could feel her happiness.

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I smiled at her. Everything was looking up. It seemed like I was going to get on the committee, Lexie had a job. Dani and I were working out even better than I had even dreamed. She completed me, in a way. Made my life just that much better. And I couldn’t have wished for anything more.

A/N: Everyone is okay with having the lines make new paragraphs, right? Also, I can’t see how many words I’ve written from the app, so they may not be 1000+ words right now!

11 thoughts on “Chapter 3.34: Hard to Describe

  1. The line breaks are working fine! I’m so excited everything’s going well. Though, in legacies, that’s usually right before everything goes wrong.

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  2. Oh jeez the “you don’t look gay” thing 🙄 Curse mainstream media for always depicting lesbians with short hair and flannel shirts! We can dress however we want, damn it! 😂 Anyway, I can’t wait to see more of Addie and Dani, so far they seem to be practically made for each other!

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    1. Oh, I know right?! As a ~very~ feminine queer girl, I feel like I’ll get the ‘you don’t look gay’ thing, as I start coming out. Addie and Dani are definitely great together ❤️

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  3. Do people REALLY put a physical description on being gay?? What in the world… lol. That’s so weird! You don’t get people saying that crap to straight people :/

    I’m glad things are going well for everyone! I worry Lexie will mess up again with her behavior, but hopefully she doesn’t lose another job D:

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    1. Yes, people do… sadly. Things ~are~ going great right now! Lexie’s getting her life back. 😄

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  4. Oh, I really like Dani and Adelaide’s relationship! They’re great together!

    (And the line-breaks work fine! 🙂 )

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  5. I think the line breaks are just fine. 🙂 I can’t believe the whole “you don’t look gay” thing. I’m glad everything seems to be going well. 🙂

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  6. I’m so glad she got the job!!

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  7. “You don’t look gay”, though. I can’t believe people still believe they have gaydars, lol. I’m so happy for Addy, she’s been truly glowing ever since she started dating Dani.

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    1. Yeah, Adelaide and Dani are so good together 😄

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