Dani wasted no time calling the clinic to see what was going on. What had happened? We’d made sure the clinic would accept the selected sperm and we went through all the processes. There should be nothing wrong.
“Hello, this is Danielle Clemonte, can I speak to Dr. Mireles, please?” I heard my wife speak, and I felt my heart rate speed up. I was getting really anxious and it hadn’t even been five minutes. The whole cycle could be messed up without the sperm container getting through. No sperm, no pregnancy. That was why we had to go through this in the first place. I couldn’t possibly get pregnant without it. And it took forever to pick a nice guy with good genes.
“Yes,” I heard, and motioned for her to put it on speaker.
“Ok, Mrs. Clemonte?”
“Yes, that’s me,” Dani replied nervously, “we just got a notice our sperm container has been put on hold.”
“Oh, yes. Is your wife there?”
“Yes,” I interjected.
“Well, I was discussing you two with my colleague, Dr. James Brennan. And he is doing a test study creating embryos from two men… or two women.”
Dani and I looked at each other, eyes widening. “Wait, what?”
“Yeah. And since you two mentioned interest in having biological kids… I figured it might be an option you were interested in so I put the sperm on hold in a nearby clinic.”
Oh my gosh. This is exactly what we were hoping for. I never thought it would actually be able to happen, but here we were. I felt a tear slide down my face in joy.
“Oh my god,” Dani whispered, squeezing my hand, at a loss for words. I felt the same way. I loved her so much and it would mean so much to me to have her baby. Our baby. Her genes should continue in our family as much as mine should.
“So, do we want to go ahead with exploring that option?” I’d forgotten she was even on the phone, and I glanced up to meet my wife’s eyes, and I could see it in her face she felt the same way I did.
Dani picked the phone up again, confirming we wanted to. We’d meet with Dr. Brennan in two days for him to explain more about the process.
We’d been anxiously waiting to meet with Dr. Brennan, and even though it was just two days, it felt like much longer. He was a nice man who seemed like the perfect grandpa, all bubbly and cheerful. Turns out the process would resemble IVF in almost every way, since they’d be placing an already-made embryo in, instead of putting the sperm in like IUI does. Except unlike actual IVF, this embryo would be Dani’s and I’s. She just had to do a few simple blood test to make sure she wasn’t carrying any genetic diseases or anything like that. Then they’d take a few of her skin cells and create sperm out of that… and fertilize my egg with it… creating an embryo. It’s amazing how far science has come.
“So, we’re going through with it?”
I bit my lip and nodded, unsure what she thought. “I really want to be pregnant with a mini us. I want that.”
Dani blushed, sliding her arm around me. “You really do? Even though the process will be more invasive?”
“Yeah, I do. I want to have your baby, Dani.”
“Aww. To be completely honest, umm… knowing the baby would technically have no relation to me felt weird. Yes, I love you so much, and I’d love to have a little you running around but I just felt like I’d be left out of something. And with everything you’re going through it just seemed dumb to complain about – or not really complain – but just say…”
“It’s not stupid, Dani. And if it wasn’t for this legacy I might’ve just decided to use your egg in the first place, but trust me, there’s no way in the world I’d have let you feel left out of this. I promise.”
She laid her head against me and I saw a small tear fall down her face. So… it wasn’t just me who was having trouble with all this, huh?
“We are not good at telling each other everything, are we?” I whispered in between tears falling down my cheeks.
“No, we’re not,” Dani replied softly, “but for the right reasons.”
“Yeah. Promise we’ll tell each other whatever’s on our mind? I know I’ve tried to keep things from you as to no make you feel bad… and you’ve been doing the same thing.”
“I promise. Promise me the same thing.”
“I promise.” Light tears dripped down my cheek as I cupped Dani’s face softly. “If I can’t tell my wife something… who can I tell?”
“Yeah, you’re right…”
“Umm, I’m not sure exactly how to do this…” I fingered the needle awkwardly, paging through the instructions with my other hand.
“Just like Kaya showed us, right?”
I tried remembering what our nurse had told us. It was my first time doing the Lupron injections and I’d never stuck a needle in myself before. I slid off my shirt, looking to see where exactly I was supposed to inject myself.
“Let’s see…” Dani flipped through the booklet, gently taking the needle from me.
“What are you doing?”
“I’m helping you.”
She wiped an area of my abdomen with the sterilization wipes, looking into my eyes. “Ready?”
I glanced at the needle and back to her. “As much as I can be.”
I squeezed my eyes shut so I didn’t have to watch the needle go through my skin and felt the sting as it went through.
“You okay, baby?”
I opened my eyes slowly, blinking. It was over. At least for today… because I’d be doing the same thing tomorrow, and the next day… and the next day. “Yeah.”
It didn’t take long before these were affecting me too. I’d held out hope they wouldn’t affect me that much, or at all, but of course not. I’m sticking myself with a needle every morning, shouldn’t that be enough? The doctor assured us it’s normal to experience side effects, even more now since they slightly upped the dosage for the experimental IVF. Turns out we’re only their fifth ‘test couple’, so to speak. We’ve met one of the other couples, a nice young gay couple who are just as excited as us that this is even possible. For them, it’s even a little more complicated as men still can’t carry babies, but one of their sisters offered to do it for them.
“Fuck,” I muttered after the third hot flash that night. I got up to get a drink of water, cringing at how disgusting I felt. It was just another ‘amazing’ side effect of Lupron, hot flashes and night sweats. Long days at work where we went out in San Myshuno promoting the mayor left me insanely sweaty at the end of the day, plus added tiredness which didn’t help at all, honestly. I was starting to think the actual pregnancy would be easier than all this, though I hadn’t had to deal with nausea yet, which I was very grateful for.
“Addie?” I looked over my shoulder to my sister, who’d apparently just walked in.
“You don’t look that good…” She just kept looking me up and down as if she was looking for something.
“I’m – uhm – worried about you.”
I scoffed jokingly, but as I looked at her eyes I realized she was dead serious.
“Wait, actually? Why?”
“I saw you sticking yourself with a needle… and you were never the kind to do drugs…”
A/N: A big shoutout to Ashubii! Thank you for helping me know how to make a banner for the story! 🙂 Also, I updated my theme!