First, for anyone that was interested in the video I posted a couple weeks ago, the second episode is now up here: https://youtu.be/0f9GBL1sqqI
However, that is not the only thing I wanted to talk about… you all probably know that I haven’t been very active on here even since I ‘got back’ this month, and I’m sorry about that. The thing is, though, I just haven’t been invested in writing right now and I don’t know entirely why. I want to want to write. I really do. This story has been such a big part of my life for the past year and few months and I don’t want to give it up. I used to really enjoy writing, especially last summer. It was really fun, and I want it to be like that again. I want to be posting regularly again. I think that maybe it’s because I feel like the chapters have to be so good now and there has to be a good planned out plot that it hasn’t become as fun. And here’s the thing, though… I know the story is better now. I know the chapters are better now and I know my writing is better now. But it isn’t as fun to write. It’s not something I want to write anymore and it genuinely hurts to say that. So – I’m asking you all if you would still be with me here if the chapters become shorter and I spend a few weeks just experimenting with how the chapters will be now. I understand if this is a disappointment, because I feel like it is, and I’m sorry. But this story used to be my life and I used to love writing it.
I want to love writing it again.